fuck off

powerhouse was great!
7 grps of friends there on a sat!
my new personal record!
but i know for myself i did not enjoy that much!

i saw something which i was lying to myself all the while!
pinning hopes blindly on something that i now can confirm will not come back
its time i move on.
its really time
sorry... it hurts badly
wad do u want me to do now??

plan cancel

i'm someone who is organised and plan for every thing before hand
unless u talking abt last min meet up
if not everything will be planned and will be carried out
u dun just vanish into thin air and expect me to just wait blindly here.
i'm pissed at the way things are.
i'm suppose to enjoy myself this weekend
dun spoil my plan!

fuck!

profile hopping

was hopping ard facebook profile just now and i saw this line



Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets;
so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it.


its nice!

ladies night

ladies night was...........
no comments

i felt freaking guilty!
i'm sooooooooooooooo sorry!
fri - sentosa party
sat - attica? or powerhouse to kill people?

i really feel like shit now!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm happy with the way we are
let's just stay this way
is it possible?

somewhere to go on tues!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha....

go? dun go?

progressing

i'm progressing slowly for a start
i'm climbing the ladder
will i make it to the top?
still a mystery
let's just see what i can do
its not about who u are...
its about who u know....
although u have to be somebody to know someone else.
progressing to be that somebody.
wish me luck guys!

i've made up my mind
4 years!
4 years later it will be a total different me
the one that i yearn for and the one that u guys will not know
my friends will change and my character will too.
few willl stay by me
for the rest
i dun care as there will be much more waiting for me with open arms
fame and wealth
thats all i want
nothing else is piority
love can wait.

i will try to move on as u asked me too but still remaining by ur side whenever u need me.
7 years ago i let the chance slip
7years later i came back too early
4years later still a mystery
this might be the last time i gonna say this. i love u. :)
thanks for the chat last night.

周杰倫- 我不配
Jay Chou- wo bu pei (I'm not worthy)

歌词詞：方文山 (Vincent Fang)
曲：周杰倫 (Jay Chou)


这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何愛你
你却微笑的离我而去

Chorus:

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
在妥协是我忽略
你不过要人陪
哦这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节
你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪
多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美
我不配


dun worry guys. i'm not emo or what-so-ever
just that i didn't pay much attention to the lyrics everytime i sing in
until ytd went k with yiting, ed and zerayanne (correct spelling ba)
den i go pay attention.
its quite meaningful.

:)

fresh

i guess i'm going back to the party life.

let's party VIP style.

i cant wait to ORD. to enjoy the life i yearn for.
ns has hinder my progress in life ALOT!

course

was on course for the whole week
my internet down so nv update
its sucks to stay in.
when u got so much things u wanna do outside it just sucks.
nights out is boring as i have to be back by 2330.
without a car. i'm somehow crippled
and now! on a fri night!
my dad will only be home by 10!
car usage after 10
suppose to go out with sy and fiona
dunno how now.
super sian!!!!!
i'm feeling damn sian for the whole of today
somehow i dun feel good.
sick and all these.
i just feel like going out to enjoy myself
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT TOTALLY SUCKS WHEN U GOT NO MONEY!



i miss u totally
it feels wierd not receiving smses from u
u always say "its not like i will die tml"
but i always wanted to tell u
its not abt u dying but its the leaving
one day u might just gonna meet someone good and everything will end
i'm just afraid that day will come.
but i'm not in any position to hold u back
i do miss u being my girlfriend.
i really do........
i guess my emotional side is taking over me now :)

powerhouse

yesterday was at powerhouse with everyone!
the hougang peeps
the camp peeps
the outside friends
and yiting.
got abit tipsy at first
but got totally sober after awhile
dancing dancing and more dancing
got home and slept till 12pm
videos and pics are all at facebook!
go view on russ's drunk acts!
hahahah!


i didn't want u to leave
i wanted u to stay
but i cant think of any reason for u to stay
i can only hug u tight before u leave.
i love u still!

memories

memories of us everywhere
every corner of my house
every route i travel
every part of singapore
every clubs that i go to



i miss the times.. i really do..
woke up with tears..

broke up

initially i thought things gonna be great
till i had this inner feeling
finally it came to reality
i had no choice but to face it.
i wanted to run
but i cant run away from it.
its the truth i must accept.

its over.. so fast......


thanks for these 16 days. i've nv been happier. neither had i love someone so deep before. i'm missing u alr..

boring

today was a super boring day for me.
woke up at 7am
had breakfast with dad before booking in into camp.
reached camp at 8.30am
didn't bother about any rule or whatsoever
just didn't have the mood to care about anything.
maybe because i'm sleepy still at that timing.
mind not awake yet.
change out of my uniform
went straight to my man bunk and slept on ivan's bed
all the way till 11am
went to use com and it lasted me all the way till 5.30pm
time to book out and off i went to my dad's car outside camp.
made me wait so long!
thanks baby for accp-ing me over the phone.


baby! i miss u!

sunday afternoon

its sunday afternoon now.
just finished my COS duty ytd.
came home knock out immediately.
tired from the waking up early.
i nv like waking up early u see.
was practically doing nothing in camp the whole day!
just slept wake up and eat!
oh ya.
of coz playing restaurant city as suggested by baby!
KTV later?
contemplating..
coz of money issues.
why cant they give us more allowance!!!
monday got some commander's retreat with everything not firm up yet.
i bet its gonna screw up!
i will be on PS course from 11 may to 22 may
means no stayout!
F***!!!
russ leaving in june?
i tot it was july u sucker.
just as baby is into trance u are leaving?!
lately i got nothing much to blog other than my life with baby
nothing much to entertain u peeps with.
i will blog if there's things happening. :)






baby. i just miss hanging out and doing random things with u. <3