pondering

had a great day with juv today.
+ dionne and sheryl for their 50% each
but still i would say
cashless days just suck!
where were the times when i can just go wherever i want and eat whatever i like?
i used to had such a comfortable life
let's hope i get the guess job
and prolly consider tuition-ing
and some other job
ya! i know i'm a workaholic!
because i dun like to be alone~
friends who know me long enough shld know this fact
i just wanna keep myself busy so that my mind would be in peace
whenever i'm alone things just flash pass my mind
reminding me of the past i yearn to get back to.
trapped inside of me i got no one to turn to.
because none knows how i feel and what i'm thinking.
and i dun like to say it out
unless u pple ask.
usually the answer will be i'm fine.
but am i really fine??
nobody but my cigg can tell :)
i'm just ranting!
nite~